Woah

Woah, I cannot believe that this semester is almost over!! It feels like we just started, not that I'm complaining because I definitely could use a vacation! I also really lucked out because next week we only have school on Monday and Tuesday, but I don't even have classes on Tuesday!!Yay!!:) I'm not too excited about Thanksgiving vacation because I have to work all day on Thanksgiving so I won't even be able to spend it with my family, and I think people should spend it with their families not eating in a restaurant!! Stay away from Gentry's on Thanksgiving (maybe I will get out early):)

Heroine

I really liked Niocollet's poem today, I liked how the title had a double meaning, not to many people think of doing something like that. I def. think there needs to be a better discussion about the brother living, because I really thought that he died. I think that is the best advice I can give, but just wanted to say I really really liked the title!

BLOG

So when I saw that we had to have 30 posts and responses I kind of freaked, but then I looked and I have way more than 30, I guess after you get use to it, its kinda fun to let others read what you have to say and see what they have to say. I didn't think I would like this whole blog thing but im getting use to it right when its almost over!

Christmas

Has anyone even thought about Christmas, it seemed so far away and now its like OMG!! I usually have all of my shopping done by now and this year I haven't even started! I need to get into gear but it's so hard to buy for everyone I think I might just give everyone a gift certificate, I think that would be much easier, but I don't want them to think I took the easy way out!

Work Shop

I'm really starting to like work shopping, its fun to see what everyone has to say to make improvements. And at the beginning I was worried about people getting mad at what others had to say about there work but its not like that at all, everyone likes the compliments so they can make their piece even better!:)

Lady

Well as everyone knows by now my dad and boyfriend are both working in Colorado so im stuck taking care of all the horses!! It wouldn't be so bad but two of them a pregnant and we have two studs, and you can't put the studs in with the mares because they will fight. And my boyfriend just called and told me that he just bought another one!

Love story

We were both young, when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts-
I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.

I see the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.
I see you make your way through the crowd-You say hello, little did I know...

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles-
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet"-
And I was crying on the staircase-
begging you please don't go...
And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the price and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.

Today

I liked hearing what everyone had to say about my poem, I thought it was going to be alot worse than it was!! The poem I wrote wasn't about me, one of my friends is going through a tough time and I was sitting in business law class and was thinking about it and decided to write a poem. Just so everyone knows how I got the idea!!Thanks for all of the suggestions I definitely will look into them!!

Hope

Black mascara streams down her face

She feels only like a big disgrace

Her thought about him makes her queasy

Getting over him isn't easy

Hearing his voice gives her butterflies

He doesn't see how hard she tries

One more day with him would mean the world

She'd do anything to be his girl

To watch his chest rise and fall

She would think she had it all

If he could just open his eyes

He could see the truth behind his own lies

Just one phone call, maybe even just one minute

She thought she would have it all, but she didn't

He was the kind of guy..

He was the kind of guy
Who always looked weird
Who freaked people out
Who would stop to pick up a penny
Who didn't like to be messed with
Who always lurked around after dark
Who followed children
Who looked like a ware wolf
Who you felt bad for in a weird way
Who has never harmed a fly
Who looked so dangerous
Who No one understood
Who had no friends
Who was cold in the winter
Who would offer to help
Who was creepy but maybe innocent
Who no one would ever understand..

Jewels

So as you can see from my post last week, Jewels had a weird bump on her paw and I was freaking out..Well I took her to the vet and it is a small tumor so now she has to get surgery on Thursday, TOMORROW!! They said she will be fine and doesn't know what it is from but they have to put her out and remove it!!

Poem

He means well
But sometimes puts me through hell

I know he loves me
But just wants to be free

My sister doesn't understand
His actions are like a rubberband

He says he is there
But sometimes doesn't know how to care

My mom wanted more from life
Said she could no longer be his wife

Someone had to take care of him
She wanted more from life than he could give

Just put that bottle down
We really want you to be around

Please make the call
We will start out at a crawl

Writing

So we are suppose to bring one of the "items" we had to put on our blog for our Friday assignment but I'm not sure what one to pick. I have it narrowed down to two pieces but I don't think either of them are very good! It is hard for me to write because I don't have creative ideas like alot of other people! But I guess its kinda fun to push myself even if my work doesn't sound so good!

Dad!

Soo my dad is coming home on the 28th, two days after my birthday and I am soo excited, it has been about a month since I have seen him!! Me and my dad are like best friends and it really sucks not seeing him all of the time. When he comes home I will be at his house the WHOLE time because I def. miss him alot! I had to go to his house last night because my sister had a party there!! It was so gross and smelly but I had to get it all cleaned up before he came home and she wasn't going to do it even though it was her party!

Jewels

So I don't know what to do..
My dog, Jewels has a weird bump on her hand I keep thinking that it might be a tic..But i never saw anything go into her paw and a tic would bubble up with blood!! I'm debating on whether or not to take her to the vet, because its freaking me out. I decided to wait a couple of days and see if it goes away, but its been about a week and it is still there!!

Describing the process.

I liked working on the "pieces" in my journal, even though I'm not a very good writer. But I tried to fix some of them to use "imagery" and make the details very clear. I also had to fix them because Robert told us to write the same word over and over again until we thought of what we wanted to write and I swear I had a whole page of the same word! It was fun, but difficult because I'm not very confident in my writings.

Halloween!

The leaves were blowing, the wind was howling, everything looked so scary. Halloween is on e of my favorite holidays because I love the feeling of being scared! You can barely see the house on the end of the street and my shoes were wet. Leaves kept hitting my body, there were millions. I go inside, branches smashing against the glass, the raindrops sounded like pounding hammers. The power lines were swaying, the windows were rattling; BOOM, what was that? Glass was everywhere, the window had shattered. The rain seemed to beat faster on the rooftop when we lost power! Now what, can’t see, can’t move, do I wait in my closet, I don’t think I like Halloween anymore!

Crash

Was everyone ok, anyone hurt? The sound of the crash was so loud, I looked over to see Cameron, and he was ok. We both sat there and didn’t know what to do, air bags on our laps, glass on the road. He gets out and opens my door to help me. The sirens start the lights flashing, people screaming. We walk over to the other car and there he was lying with his eyes unopened. What to do where to go, we get pushed back as the jaws of life come to pull him out. The noise of crushing metal, screaming people-is he alright...He gets up, drunk; afraid to speak, what has he done, he ruined everything. They rush him to the hospital again the sirens, what now I said what do we do now? Please tell me what they will do to this man, he could have killed us!

My Moms Fern.

My Moms Fern

My mom had a fern that was in our living room for as long as I can remember. She could never keep anything alive and I’m not sure why she had such a problem, even if she took good care of the plants everything would still shortly die. The only plant she ever kept alive was this fern. It was in the same spot for as long as I can remember. One day she decided to move it in front of the window, well; this window happened to be where my cat slept everyday. One day we all went into the living room and it was tipped over. No one could figure out how or why until a week later when we came home and found our fat cat lying in the middle of the fern breaking all of the branches. My mom tried to save it and even replanted it, it she obviously did not save it! We had an empty fern dish in our living room for a long time because she was praying it would come back! But like I said she has never kept anything alive, and still can’t.

A Ghostly Tune

The scene was set perfectly,Appearing in black and white.Standing in a heart aching obscurity. As the stars illuminate the night.The piano before him played softly,A melodious saddening tune.Her gentle palm touched the keys,Shining blindingly like the moon.She smiled that innocent smile,She shone a magnificent white.Lips the color dark as blood,Reappearing in and out of sight.He slowly sat down beside her,Wrapped one arm around her waist.She silently played her song,As he attempted to caress her face.The tears ran down her cheeks,As his hand went straight through.She was gone forever... from this world...Slowly fading away she whispers: " I love you..."

Fairies Day

by TJ BECKER Arizona boy
Before the sun begins to rise, a miracle appearsFlying through the moonlit sky making her premierOn a misty blue dragonfly she swirls through the airStars shining in her eyes moonbeams in her hairThe fairy queen is Shelli she rings the morning bellLetting all her subjects know time to weave their spellFrom leafs of green, flowers of pink, and vines with purple hueThey stretch, yawn and with a smile make their day's debutTheir bathtub is a buttercup filled with morning dewBreakfast is the nectar from a flower of brilliant blueFairy wings on the wind spread mischief everywhereThey dip and fly through the sky as music fills the airQueen wears vibrant colors they sparkle, shine and danceIf you look in her eyes, you will fall into her tranceHer hair is ever changing streaks of black or blondLightly she touches down making ripples in the pond

Long Weekend..

Well this long weekend has been alot of fun, but it went by wayyy too fast!! My friend Erin had a birthday over the long weekend and we all got together for that because as you all know Cameron is home!! And her boyfriend Richard just got home because he works out of town also. We all went four-wheeling and horse back riding and had a ton of fun..but all in all the weekend went by wayy to fast!

Don't Bother Any Butterflies

Don't bother any butterflies.
Give ladybugs no grief.
Don't irritate the inchworm
as it strolls along the leaf.
Do not besiege the bumblebee
or set upon the fly.
If a spider walks beside you
let the spider sidle by.
Try not to plague the locust.
Let the caterpillar pass.
Investigate no anthill
with your magnifying glass.
Don't terminate the termite
or antagonize the flea.
If a beetle is before you,
let it be, yeah, let it be.
If you should come across a bug
you now know what to do,
for if you do not bug the bug
the bug will not bug you.
--Kenn Nesbitt

This is such a cute little poem I thought I would share it with everyone!:)

Birthday Present!

Cam's birthday was the third and im glad I had a couple extra days to get his present because it is so hard to buy for him! If he wants something he just buys it! But I finally decided on a Garmin (GPS) and a sticker for his truck. The sticker is a yamaha sticker and I got one for his truck and one for my car! They will look cute. It sucks that I couldn't see him on his birthday because he is in Colorado, and he won't be here for mine either which is on the 26th.

Cameron!!

Tomorrow Cameron is finally coming home and im soooo excited!! He has been gone for about a month and three weeks..But it definately feels like FOREVER! He is so excited to come home and ride his horse, because he hasn't got to do that in awhile, but he also has to finish putting up the fence, which won't be too much fun!I don't care what we do though, im sooo excited to see him!:)

Megan<3

I got a call today from my little cousin Megan, she is seven, she is the funniest little shit ever! She called to tell me that she got something, and she would not tell me what! She said it is black, brown and white and is really really big! I thought maybe a cow because her dad is a farmer, but she said WRONG! She said I named it Reeces Pieces..haha..I said Megan did you get a Pony, and she was so excited when she said "yes Jess now I can be just like you"! So we all know what I will be doing tomorrow!!

Shopping!

Tomorrow after school, I finally have a day off from work, so me and some friends are going to go to Watertown to do some shopping! I guess I'm really not doing much shopping for myself, its Cameron's birthday on Friday and I need to get him his GPS..I guess it will be worth it because he is getting me a new laptop!:)

Sleep!

1.)Pressed Snooze.
2.)Pressed Snooze..
3.)Pressed Snooze!
4.) Finally stood up.
5.)Took Jewels outside.
6.)Showered.
7.)Brushed my teeth.
8.)Got dressed.
9.)Got back in bed!!
10.)Finally got out of bed and went to school, I feel like I never have time to just sleep!

Workshoping

I don't know how I feel about letting the whole class read my stories or poems, I'm not a very good writer and I don't know if I will like everyone reading it. I'm not sure I even like work shopping others writings because it just doesn't feel comfortable or something!

Business

Business law is crazy,
Because of Kelsey's mouth our teacher gave us a stupid homework assignment!
We never have homework but he decided to give it to us because she said she wasn't ever going to read the book, and I think he just wanted to prove a point..
She came over tonight so we could work on it and only got half way through, I can never stay awake during a whole class because it is sooo BORING!

The Caz

The other night, I called my grandma and asked her to go to the Casablanca. Its so sad to realize that grandma is getting old, she was so excited to spend time with me, but it made me feel bad, I should spend more time with her, but I never have any time! When we were eating me and my grandma talked about my grandpa who passed away when I was in the 6th grade. I don't know what I would do without her, I can' image losing her to. It just makes you stop and realize that you need to make the best out of every day.

Grandma

in her vegetable garden, tipping the rusted pail:well-water spills in the spring leaves,like broth into green bowls.Over-filling:water leaks thru soil-pores,again into stone well where it waits for him, who will not come to shift the heavy lid. I clasp her tissue-handin (was it?) prayer.

I like this poem because it is showing the love of her husband. I like it because it shows the meaning of the hurt and pain of losing someone.

Dancer!

So I decided to go horseback riding on Wednesday because my dad was home from Colorado. I rode Dancer and my dad rode Harley. Dancer is very green, he has only been rode twice, but I decided I wanted to ride him. It wasn't very warm out I had a heavy coat and mittens, the wind was whipping and the leaves were flying. Something ran through the woods, it looked like a deer; Dancer got spooked and threw me off and I fell into the trees. It didn't hurt to bad and I thought I was ok..When i woke up this morning I could barley get out of bed and I have had a pounding headache! But I guess that's what happens when your training a horse!

Dad!

My dad came home from Colorado on Wednesday, I had to pick him up from the airport in Syracuse. I didn't want to go alone so I brought my dog Jewels:) I was so excited to see my dad he is my best friend and I hate that he has to work out of town. Cameron didn't get to come home this time because he refused to pay the price of the plane ticket. When my dad came home we went for a four wheeler ride, went horse back riding and rode the bikes! I wish he could be home more often because I get so bored without him! But at least I got to spend some time with him while he's home.

Work

Work sucks! Today is my only day off this week and I feel like I never have time for anything! I go to school everday and have to leave at eight in the morning because I commute. I usually don't get home until two and then have to be at work at three thirty. It just feels like I never have any time for myself. Then by the time ten o clock roles around when im done work I don't want to do anything because im tired and it is also ten at night! Lets just say I need a vacation!

Baby Mama

Last night I watched Baby Mama and it was funny, but not the best movie I've ever seen. I mean I liked the movie, but sometimes I think the actors were kind of cheesy! But it was definitely funny, and I'm glad I watched it. I won't give it away for those who want to watch it!

Art

Art is the expression of creativity or imagination. Art has a meaning beyond simple description. In my eyes I believe horses are considered art. They are such a beautiful animal it is hard not to consider them that. There are many different kinds and colors and they each have their own beauty. The way they walk, trot and gallop is simply beautiful. They are so smooth and graceful yet so strong and dangerous. Horseback riding is relaxing and peaceful but it is the horse itself that I consider art. I don't consider horses art just because of there beauty but also because of their innocence. They are just so peaceful and innocent, they have no worries or problems. They are simply an amazing animal but as i said art has a meaning beyond simple description.

Miss You!

So I'm guessing everyone knows that the big thing in Gouverneur was the mines..Well they finally shut the doors. My boyfriend and my dad both worked at the mines for Dumas and now that they closed they both decided they wanted to move to Colorado and work out there. A week after my high school graduation I moved to Colorado with Cameron (my boyfriend) but then we moved back because I decided I wanted to go to college in New York. Well now my dad and Cameron are moving back out there and it sucks! Cameron and I live together so it really sucks now that he is gone because I get so bored, but now I def. have alot more time for homework! It just sucks when the people you love the most have to leave, I guess its not to bad because they work fourteen days and come home for seven but it feels like a hundred years!! Dad and Cam if you guys ever read this know that I miss you both and love yah's!

Jewels

Last year on my way home from school me and my friends started drinking..When we got back from Gouverneur we decided to get a couple of people together to hang out and drink! Well lets just say I got pretty "drunk" and we decided we wanted to go to Watertown to go shopping. Well when we got out there we decided we didn't want to shop but they were selling puppies and I adored them and just wanted to bring one home! Well I handed them $200 dollars and they handed me a PIT BULL! I obviously wasn't really thinking to clearly but when I woke up in the morning with a put bull laying next to me a came to reality! I called my dad and told him what I did, he laughed but was kind of mad. I didn't know what to do, I didn't know if I should sell her or keep her. I mean I go to school and have a job, I didn't have time for a puppy! But after a couple of weeks of deciding what to do, I fell in love!! I named her Jewels and she is 9 months old. She is seriously like my daughter I spend more money on her then I do on myself! I don't like to leave her alone so she usualy goes to the babysitters (my mom or sister) when im at work or school. Everyone say's pit bulls are so mean but she is the biggest baby ever, it is definately the way you raise them!

Hmm.

Well, im not really sure what to say because I have never had a blog before so I guess I will just tell you a little about myself. This is my second year at Suny Canton and I didn't think I would like it at first but after awhile it grew on me. I live in Gouverneur and have my own house so I commute to Canton everyday, the drive isn't that bad its only about thirty minutes away, but the winter is a different story. I work at Gentry's clam cove, and I actually make pretty good money for being a waitress around here but I like the people I work with and so I guess everything works out. I like to ride horses and play sports when I have free time (which isn't very often). I have five horses, well actually I have one and my dad has four. Last summer we had fifteen so I guess you can say we are cutting back! Riding is just so relaxing and it just takes your mind off things. My horse's name is Crazy Legs and I love her! A week after I graduated high school I moved to Colorado with my boyfriend and I had to sell her. But fortunately I sold her to a friend, and I said if you ever want to get rid of her you have to sell her back to me! Well I came back to New York and my dad told me they sold Crazy legs to someone else and I was so pissed I cried! My dad let me freak out for about twenty minutes before he told me he was the one who bought her back! I was so mad but so happy at the same time because Crazy legs got to come back home!